God Saved Me

I spent my whole damn life Being who they needed Strong back, shut mouth Yeah I know you’ve seen it Smile for the world While my soul went missing A man can scream for years If nobody listens I poured another drink Just to kill the noise Started hating who I was Started fearing my own voice Everybody loves the man Who never needs saving Funny thing is… I was dying while they praised him And I knew… If I stayed the same I’d die the same way Yeah I heard that line a thousand times But this time it cut my veins “If you always do what you’ve always done…” Then why the hell Was I shocked By what I’d become? God saved me… Cause I damn sure couldn’t save myself I was six feet deep inside my mind Digging my own hell One more night And I might not be standing here So if you hear this song Brother… Just know I know that fear God saved me… From the man I was becoming I got scars nobody sees From wars nobody mentions Learned real young Men survive through suppression So I wore pain like armor Till it fused to my skin Couldn’t tell where I ended And the darkness began And the truth? I got real damn close To letting go completely But somebody upstairs Still had plans to keep me breathing And I knew… If I stayed the same I’d die the same way Yeah I heard that line a thousand times But this time it cut my veins “If you always do what you’ve always done…” Then why the hell Was I shocked By what I’d become? God saved me… Cause I damn sure couldn’t save myself I was six feet deep inside my mind Digging my own hell One more night And I might not be standing here So if you hear this song Brother… Just know I know that fear God saved me… From the man I was becoming So if you’re sitting in the dark With your hand around the bottle Thinking nobody would care If your heart stopped tomorrow You’re wrong You’re more than your worst night More than your last mistake And sometimes rock bottom Is the ground God shakes Before he rebuilds you God saved me… When I was too far gone to turn around When the weight of who I was Was dragging me down And if you always do What you’ve always done You’ll always get What you’ve always got So I buried that man And let the fire restart God saved me… But first he broke my heart God saved me… From the man I was becoming