I Heard You

I used to pray through the thunder Like You were hiding in the sky Asking You to keep it quiet While I was terrified inside I knew the line between wrong and right Still I danced across it slow I believed You were watching Then I chose to let You go And I won't lie — I liked the feeling Running wild, no consequence Yeah I called it freedom back then Now I know what it meant I heard You in the silence When I stopped picking up Your call Didn't come like lightning Didn't shout above it all Just a whisper in a moment This is not for you — walk away And I didn't even know it But You saved me that day We were standing in that bathroom Two boys thinking we were men Poison sitting on the counter One step closer to the edge Then a voice cut through the chaos Clear as anything I've known Said this is not for you — leave it So I turned… and I went home He didn't hear what I heard And I watched his whole life fall And every time I think about it That could've been me in that stall I heard You in the silence When I stopped picking up Your call Didn't come like lightning Didn't shout above it all Just a whisper in a moment This is not for you — walk away And I didn't even know it But You saved me that day I drank just to feel something To become who I could fake Chasing women, chasing moments I didn't care who I would break My boys said that's just living So I followed, never led Thought I found my purpose in it But I lost myself instead Then You stripped it back to nothing No more noise to hide behind And I saw who I'd become And I didn't like that guy Now I hear You in the silence In the way I choose to live In the eyes that call me father In the patience that I give I don't run like I did back then I don't need to prove I'm strong 'Cause the man I'm trying to be now Is who she'll learn from You never left me in the chaos I was the one out on my own But if You stayed through all my running I'll never walk alone