Starting With A Maybe

I keep a notebook full of things I’ll never do All the jobs I almost took, the songs I never knew There’s a photo from a bar where I looked alive But I remember faking it just to survive Everyone says, “You’ll know when it feels right” But some of us are better at sleepwalking through the light Is it lost, or was it never really there? Am I drifting or just scared to care? I’ve been staring down a hundred different signs But none of them have lines that look like mine Starting with a maybe I talk a big game when no one's around Then shrink into the quiet when it’s time to be found The future felt like something far away Until I noticed it was tied to every choice today They said it’s written in your stars But mine are hidden somewhere behind too many bars Is it lost, or was it never really there? Am I drifting or just scared to care? I've been waiting for a thunderbolt or flame But maybe all I really need is aim Starting with a maybe Is it 'cause I’m off my path — or haven’t made one yet? Waiting for permission’s just another kind of threat There’s no grand drumroll saying, “Now’s the time” Sometimes you move just 'cause the choice is mine It’s not lost, I just never took the wheel What’s real is what I dare to feel I don’t need a reason written in the sand I just need the guts to take a stand Starting with a maybe No more betting on some far-off guarantee It begins right here — with me Starting with a maybe